2003-12-30 - who knew leaving could be so damned easy?
2003-12-19 - back here in the land reality forgot
2003-12-11 - 'yeah i have a scar i can talk about'
2003-12-08 - 'the ongoing wow is happening right now'
2003-12-06 - home is a concert crowd on a friday night
2003-12-05 - 'i've always been an introvert happily bleeding'
2003-12-01 - i hate everything but hatin' things
2003-11-30 - frisbee golfers make my heart beat fast
2003-11-23 - 'sometimes lonely hearts just get lonelier'
2003-11-18 - 'i just wish you would come over and explain things'
2003-11-14 - 'there's a hole in my soul. you can see it in my face'
2003-11-11 - 'birthday wishes are the only ones with validity'
2003-11-08 - let's be roseanne and jackie and open a sandwhich shop
2003-11-06 - 'i think i could fall madly in bed with you'
2003-11-04 - 'ripping up words that i thought were important'
2003-11-02 - 'catch a falling star and put in your pocket'
2003-10-31 - 'or i can break and take it with a smile'
2003-10-13 - my house is a cricket graveyard
2003-10-12 - as paula would say, 'two words: pha and nominal'
2003-10-07 - 'see what i've built? it shines so beautifully'
2003-10-06 - 'i'm a burning effigy of everything i used to be'
2003-10-03 - my sleep disorder forgot how to be poetic
2003-10-02 - i am not my heart, though i do feel her pain
2003-09-30 - 'this is the face i make when i'm sad'
2003-09-30 - what does that even mean?
2003-09-29 - i used to write, but now i watch tv
2003-09-27 - rediscovering the joys of saturday morning cartoons
2003-09-21 - 'a place where only beautiful souls will hold you'
2003-09-14 - 'this is the part of me that needs medication'
2003-09-12 - 'we're both such magnificent liars'
2003-09-09 - 'and you may ask yourself: how did i get here?'
2003-09-04 - 'haven't you heard that i'm going to be ok?'
2003-09-03 - like charlie brown and that damn football
2003-08-29 - 'oh the places you'll go'
2003-08-28 - 'time is a maniac scattering dust'
2003-08-27 - maybe i caught it just so i could set it free
2003-08-25 - '...but i love gatherings. isn't it ironic?'
2003-08-23 - my groupie potential is through the roof
2003-08-22 - what are 12 regrets in 23 years?
2003-08-05 - i am the mistress of almost
2003-08-04 - 'she was frantic, saying you were talking crazy'
2003-08-03 - 'alcohol is bad, mmkay?'
2003-07-31 - 'tomorrow might be good for something'
2003-07-19 - destination: austin texas
2003-07-16 - 'this is the part of me that loves my parents'
2003-07-14 - my other half left me, because i'm bad at fractions
2003-07-13 - 'in my life i loved you more'
2003-07-11 - my real title went running off with my self-esteem
2003-07-09 - tonight's the night i didn't win the lottery
2003-07-07 - 'never really mastered disinterest'
2003-07-04 - 'birth and death in the same episode'
2003-07-04 - 'i swear this time i have not lied'
2003-06-28 - i write about morbid things to calm the urge to do them
2003-06-27 - joys are often the shadows cast by sorrows
2003-06-25 - and they say that romance is dead
2003-06-23 - 'i'm dying to add a little sunshine to your life'
2003-06-23 - this entry is not about the "american idol" movie
2003-06-20 - naked chef, will you be my naked boyfriend?
2003-06-20 - 'take these sunken eyes and learn to see'
2003-06-19 - the wisdom of jerry circa 1999
2003-06-18 - 'the voice in my head said, don't look back'
2003-06-11 - 'best friends means you'll get what you deserve'
2003-06-09 - let's pick up the pieces and have a get-togerher
2003-06-07 - 'been here far too long'
2003-05-27 - federal holidays are a sharp pain in my ass
2003-05-26 - 'daddy wasn't there ... i guess he doesn't care'
2003-05-23 - 'broken hearts want broken necks'
2003-05-23 - if you were me, you'd be overhung in texas
2003-05-19 - my fridge is full of 400 speed film and diet dr thunder
2003-05-18 - the next morning (or before i forget again)
2003-05-15 - you could let me get a word in edgewise
2003-05-10 - so yeah, i'll sell you my garage
2003-05-08 - home sweet hell
2003-05-08 - i don't want to leave it this way (23 days and counting)
2003-05-07 - preparing for a confrontation that will never come
2003-05-07 - best friends forever, or until you piss me right off
2003-05-05 - if the "toxic avenger" can find love, why can't i?
2003-04-30 - it'll know cause it's the magic eight ball
2003-04-28 - no wonder i don't believe in the power of love
2003-04-27 - i'll be your connie if you'll be my bobby hill
2003-04-26 - so this must be what happy feels like
2003-04-24 - 'what's with Today, today?'
2003-04-20 - even soft-core gay porn reminds me of you
2003-04-18 - again, 'i'm obsessed. i get no rest'
2003-04-15 - i draw the line at naming my furniture
2003-04-15 - 'i want to hate you so bad, but i can't'
2003-04-13 - 'another saturday night and i ain't got nobody'
2003-04-12 - saturday morning cooking shows
2003-04-12 - you can't fucking woo me now
2003-04-11 - my day is made (or the nada surf entry)
2003-04-11 - sense perception (77 songs that remind me of you)
2003-04-03 - 'this may be the last thing that i write for long'
2003-04-02 - these are the things i missed yesterday
2003-04-02 - how can i be over-sexualized when i don't have sex
2003-04-01 - monday night drinking games
2003-03-30 - kissing for the sake of kissing
2003-03-29 - more about last night
2003-03-29 - who knew you could do that?
2003-03-28 - so much for slamming your head to happiness
2003-03-27 - no one's truly content to be alone
2003-03-25 - boohoo, poor poor me
2003-03-24 - survey says: chris kirkpatrick is god
2003-03-23 - the real world: for the ladies
2003-03-23 - jeep drivers are assholes
2003-03-22 - where'd my words go?
2003-03-18 - 'you can only catch it from a computer'
2003-03-17 - 'it's being content with who you are'
2003-03-16 - 'i'm obsessed. i get no rest'
2003-03-16 - 'we're spanning time'
2003-03-01 - hey, it worked for jeff timmons, didn't it?
2003-02-28 - 'this sentence has seen too much/forgotten too little'
2003-02-25 - henry rollins, will you be my secret boyfriend?
2003-02-23 - the last three years in the shell of a nut. a nutshell.
2003-02-23 - 'i won't get mononucleosis, will i?'
2003-02-23 - a short scene from the life of my alter-ego shad
2003-02-21 - the rift kept getting larger til it ate my world whole
2003-02-19 - something sunny for these dark days
2003-02-19 - tired of trying to figure it out
2003-02-19 - the story told like it didn't happen to me
2003-02-19 - isn't sleep death's cousin?
2003-02-18 - 'maybe this world is another planet's hell'
2003-02-18 - be careful what you wish for
2003-02-17 - it's about mat
2003-02-16 - if there is a god, she hates me
2003-02-16 - disturbing and degrading
2003-02-14 - i never pick up lucky pennies anymore.
2003-02-13 - never one for superstition
2003-02-10 - ich verschwinde (i disappear)
2003-02-09 - is any sadness ever the same sadness?
2003-02-08 - if i close my eyes, you can't see me, right?
2003-02-07 - proper ettiquite for proper dating
2003-02-06 - 'ronald, email is for geeks and paedophiles'
2003-02-05 - messages schmessages
2003-02-02 - 'i wish i was both young and stupid'
2003-02-02 - 'but if you don't go out how do you meet people?'
2003-02-01 - to move too fast and want too hard
2003-01-31 - a night of heavy eye make-up and heavy drinking
2003-01-30 - it hurts too much to watch you walk away
2003-01-30 - i may be the ice man, but i only have ice for you
2003-01-29 - some late-night ranting
2003-01-28 - just a flick of a lighter's light
2003-01-28 - my ode to nyquil
2003-01-27 - 'tell me who i have to be to get some reciprocity'
2003-01-25 - obsessive. slash. compulsive.
2003-01-25 - quick, wake me if i'm dreaming
2003-01-24 - 'i want you to notice when i'm not around.'
2003-01-24 - 'and i never tell you this distance seems terrible'
2003-01-24 - if reality tv's sick and wonderful - then reality's just sick
2003-01-22 - 'yep, there's your answer, fishbulb'
2003-01-22 - accidental happiness
2003-01-22 - there are no do-overs in the 'real world,' are there?
2003-01-20 - things that make you go grrrrrrrr
2003-01-20 - they don't call it melodrama for nothing, folks
2003-01-18 - where is it that they say home is?
2003-01-17 - my least favorite color is frustration
2003-01-16 - one track mind
2003-01-14 - copping a feel
2003-01-13 - just the beginning